Hey hey..
Its kinda very long i never update so here goes..
I currently having my N levels.. And its sucks to the core.. Today i had my Social Studies paper.. And i can't finish my Source Base sia.. Damn uh..!! I'm totally sad now and fucking stress.. First now for my love sucks and guys can go suck dick.. Hate them a lot a lot..!! They just think of themselves and not thinking of others.. And i kinda miss my late Grandpa.. Miss him a lot a lot.. His my laughing gas.. Now his gone i feel lonely at home.. I've not been eating well same goes as my sleep.. I will get sleepy frequently and my eye bags are getting bigger.. I'm tired, I'm scared all the feeling come together one go.. I'm totally stress up here.. I'm missing u so much..
Yesterday, i went out with few of my beloved friends.. Nora, Ifa, Achel, Fatin, Ira boinboin, Jia wei and Alson.. We went to Woodlands library to study.. I bring my Social studies.. But end up at the library, okay maybe we study abit uh but we keep laughing sia.. Then we get scolded a lot of time and i feel paise uh.. Then something happen.. I was kinda fed up but i can't simply force that someone not to meet P.. I'm only a friend of that someone.. So i went kfc buy food for my lil sister for break fast.. Then we teman Jia Wei buy friendship band for his friend.. Help him choose and then we went down to the Burger King.. Saw P, was shock n shocking a lot.. Hahhahahaa.. Then, they wanted go Jurong Point to break fast.. So i say i wanna send my lil sis her food first, then go JP.. I asked who wants to follow me.. End up Nora and Ifa and Jia wei follow.. But Jia wei never follow until my house.. I asked him go home meet his friends.. So left Nora, Ifa and me uh.. Send food come down back then waited for 187 bus.. At that point of time, Nora and Ifa is piss off with the others.. Before the bus came, we laugh and laugh and take pics and laugh again.. Nora with her favourite word ' aaauuzzzubbillaah '.. Hahahaha.. Bus came, boarded bus.. At first never saw the others in the bus.. When suddenly i saw them, so call ' hugging '.. Ughh.. Heart pain.. So went to tell Nora that the rest is at the back of the bus.. She say where got.. Then she saw uh.. We break fast in the bus cause haven reached JP break fast time reached weady.. Hahaha.. My english sucks so dont mind please.. We eat Pokki Pokki.. Hahaha.. Reached JP went to banquet and eat lorh.. I didn't order anything cause mood for eating was not there.. So treat those two crazy mad girls drink.. Nora seriously u eat DAMN slow..!! Hahahaha.. Then her eating place like garang guni sia.. Messy nak mampos..!! Hahaha.. Finish eating, meet the rest outside JP.. Talk things out.. Then P look2 at me.. I just ignore and do my own stuff.. Went to interchange, all went to Bpp except for Ifa.. :( She need to go grandmother house.. In the bus no mood.. Look out window and termenung..!! Hahaha.. Reached Bpp, Nora treat me oreo mcflury, Yum yum and yummy..!! Then go home..!! Bathe then msg msg Nora and fall asleep..
To that someone,
I know I'm not good or sincere enough for u.. But u need to know that i really love u and i treasure the moment we had spent together.. Missing the laughter that we use to share and the smile u always gave me.. Even though we are not meant to be together, I believe that we had a great friendship.. Hope this friendship would last long till the day I'm gone.. I hope that someone u love could make u happy always.. And i want u to smile all the time like how u use to smile went I'm around.. I'll never ever forget those memories we have made and shared.. I'm sorry if i don't treat u well enough.. I'm sorry i make u feel uncomfortable when I'm with u.. I'm really really truly sorry.. Remember this, I'll be there for u whenever u need someone to talked to, someone who can be your litsening ears, someone who willing to give a shoulder to cry on, someone who can make u smile and most of all someone who can love u the most.. Its a text or a call away just to get me and i'll be there.. Be happy always when I'm not around okay.. =]
To someone who i hurt,
I'm sorry if i hurt your little heart.. I'm sorry for being a MOTHERFUCKER.. I'm sorry for not telling u earlier.. I'm sorry for playing your heart.. I'm sorry if i lie to u.. I'm sorry for not treating u well.. I'm sorry for what i've done to u.. I know u are hurt by my FUCKING attitude.. I know i'm wrong.. I admit it.. But please forgive me for what i've done to u, all this while..
Labels: - love is full of sacrifises, if u love that someone, leave them if that's the last thing u had to do